8458 - adjustments, travel

[scottobear]

Rest in Peace, Webmonkey. I hope the zombie of your concept rises soon, to feed on the brains of other young web developers elsewhere.

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I'm opting out of Dragon*Con this year, because it looks like zero of the six people who were going to go (that I wanted to see and visit with) are giving it a pass this year for one reason or another. I can validate the cost of the trip as a get-together, but not just for gaming and shopping.

I'm still shooting for a trip to Sterling, VA sometime this summer, though.

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Two entries ago I poured out a long, heartfelt post about a lot of things... so many things in fact, that I retroactively privatized it. Stuff about my bro, friendships, oddball behaviors of mine, attitude changes and so on. Some large changes are coming up in my life, a few I can see, many I don't even know by name yet, but I'm sure are out there. I'm rethinking some aspects of who I am, and what I'm about.

Some Elements I wish to retain are -

Basic Kindness, and a desire to help others
Sharp skills in my field and interests
Being honest with people when possible, Diplomacy as needed otherwise
Knowing boundaries where I can be open, and where I must close.
Give as good as I get, or better
An acceptable level of Justice
Sensitivity/awareness/intelligence
analysis of information on multiple levels at the same time. (See the forest and the trees. And the leaves, the systems within and innate beauty of all of the above
quality time with Newton and Friends

Some Elements I wish to acquire -

A greater sense of general knowledge over specialization (especially by filling in any fragmented gaps)
Interest in getting goals done in a timely manner, with minimal stress - (Focus without anxiety.)
Less Slovenly appearance
Better tolerance of people who refuse to communicate properly, or at least accept it when folks will not hear what I have to say (even when I'm asked for "input")
Love without condition.
An acceptable level of Mercy (I seem to have too much or too little, depending on the situation.)

Aspects to remove or modify -

Regain balance in all 4 aspects of life - Mental, Physical, Emotional, and Spiritual.
Develop a more structured regimen to develop those areas that are currently weak (Physical seems highest on the list, though the others, too)
Rework current financial plans, allow for greater depth of field.
Eliminate Burnout - Find good, acceptable strengths in what's being done, and do the best to diminish or remove negatives.
More tolerance of the foolish and ignorant (but continue to remove them from positions where they can harm themselves or others)
Hone view of other folks' signals, and act on them, but remain my own person
Writing - minimum 1 hour a day of drills, practice, etc. Same goes for a body workout with weights or something more than just walking.
Better Dietary Controls - slipping up too much

Bottom Line: focus on growth, health and being a good person.

We'll see how I do at this in the times to come.

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1 year ago - mp, kev, $, Rs, the love god mp3, update info about me, tag cloud, allergy

2 years ago - construction webbing, fonts, celebs, web cam fights crime

3 years ago - braced, zombie pumpkin fights, insanity script, insurance stupidity

4 years ago - dream about Ray at the paint store, little people, domed 3d displays,great ape project, 28 things quiz, sue the teacher trend, mental comfort

5 years ago - - cool mini or not, vatic, cool things about moving, smoothies, misc news, age poll, counter testing, chocolate bees, Victorian Sex Cry Generator, what's for supper, coloring book concept germ

6 years ago - Newtcam's own page posted

Comments

[peradouro.livejournal.com]

It's a good thing (which you probably know) that you can pinpoint your personal highlights. Sometimes all that stuff is hard to dig out. And digging around often feels so crappy we just give up. Good luck with your goals :)

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thanks! I'm going to try.

[sedefendendo.livejournal.com]

i love these posts, you are just so honest, and so good, and you are incredible taking time to really think about what you love and what you wanna work on.....about yourself! i admire that, for we all need to take inventory every now and then, i know i do!

blessings, and thrilled to hear that beautiful voice of yours!

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thanks! I had a great time gabbing, too!

[sedefendendo.livejournal.com]

go us, we are so going to do it again soon!

[blackhellkat.livejournal.com]

You can do whatever you set your mind to--I firmly believe that!

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[blackhellkat.livejournal.com]

Heck I think you've made quite a dent in that list this year :D xxoo

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

still needs a some work, though! :D you've helped a lot.

We've decided to do the same thing

[phillykat.livejournal.com]

Seriously. You're aspects to remove/modify are like I wrote them. I can't even point out what is more on point. As a matter of fact Scott, all your list hit home for the most part. You know I wish you much peace, love, laughter, and the good health that goes with it.

I've cleared enough space to start my workouts: combo pilates, belly dancing, and anaerobic exercises (sans the weights because I'm too weak for that right now). Good luck!!

Re: We've decided to do the same thing

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

keeno! good luck to you on your efforts, as well!

Re: We've decided to do the same thing

[phillykat.livejournal.com]

thanks hon! i need it. discipline is not a strong suit of mine.

[fivefootmayhem.livejournal.com]

Zombie web monkeys!!! RUN!!

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

Aieeeee!!

[weezeroni.livejournal.com]

Introspection is good. Escpecially the kind you have done, listing positives and areas to work on. Sometimes I think I immediately forget anything I do right and focus on the bad. It's draining. It was good to hear your voice (sort of) last night. Sorry that DragonCon fell through.

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

There'll be other get-togethers!

it can be hard to focus on positives when feeling glum, that's true.

glad to chitty-chat briefly with you and sedef!

[weezeroni.livejournal.com]

Actually, glum or not, I have a tendency to focus only on the things I need to work on. I don't linger often on successes or good qualities. I am working on it though...

[sirenity.livejournal.com]

I like your list - a lot. I can seriously relate to many things on your list. Thanks for sharing it. It helps me think about the things that I need 'fixing' too. =)

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

happy to share. :D Glad it works for you!

[juliabee.livejournal.com]

"trip to Sterling, VA" --- is that where you're going to vacation?? I'm still trying to figure it out....!

"Two entries ago I poured out a long, heartfelt post about a lot of things... so many things in fact, that I retroactively privatized it. Stuff about my bro, friendships, oddball behaviors of mine, attitude changes and so on"

Cryyyyy! I wish I coudl have seen it. :0)

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

aww.. maybe I'll filter it for you. :D

I'm heading to VA/MD/DC, but mostly MD,

[juliabee.livejournal.com]

Awww..I think you should! No way in heck will I start the super-sonic filter we talked about once, if you don't have one, too. :D

Wow....peectures in lots of states. Yay! :)

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

sounds fair, a super seekreet only very private bestest friends filter :D