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scottobearI've found my life changing, this last decade.
Where once, I identified with Daffy Duck and Wile E. Coyote... I think that I can more closely identify with Sam the Sheepdog. I'm more competent at what I do. I'm not as excitable as I once was and seem to be cast more in the protector/helper role than the goofy dolt. I like it. I don't get in trouble as often and can use my skills for more useful tasks then just running into walls.
I don't know if I can pinpoint where I changed over. I do know that at university, I was sullen, and more than a little angry... easy to get my goat. I think that living on my own, with my own job and even having something of a dependant (If you can count Newton as one) has really changed my outlook on things. I'm not free to do some things, but those things are really damaging so it's fine not to. I don't want to get hurt, because folks depend on me. When I flew solo, it was easy to take the attitude of "Who cares, I'm the only one at risk". Now, I have to feed the cat. :) I'm not going to let my misdeeds hurt those folks that I love. What's more is that as I've become more secure in my place, it's easier to help other people, too. Philosophy is simpler when you're not just trying to survive.... I'm not hungry, so I can afford to think. That's a huge boon.
More to follow... have to get back to work.
Where once, I identified with Daffy Duck and Wile E. Coyote... I think that I can more closely identify with Sam the Sheepdog. I'm more competent at what I do. I'm not as excitable as I once was and seem to be cast more in the protector/helper role than the goofy dolt. I like it. I don't get in trouble as often and can use my skills for more useful tasks then just running into walls.
I don't know if I can pinpoint where I changed over. I do know that at university, I was sullen, and more than a little angry... easy to get my goat. I think that living on my own, with my own job and even having something of a dependant (If you can count Newton as one) has really changed my outlook on things. I'm not free to do some things, but those things are really damaging so it's fine not to. I don't want to get hurt, because folks depend on me. When I flew solo, it was easy to take the attitude of "Who cares, I'm the only one at risk". Now, I have to feed the cat. :) I'm not going to let my misdeeds hurt those folks that I love. What's more is that as I've become more secure in my place, it's easier to help other people, too. Philosophy is simpler when you're not just trying to survive.... I'm not hungry, so I can afford to think. That's a huge boon.
More to follow... have to get back to work.
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Date: 2001-04-12 11:14 am (UTC)I guess one good sign that I'm on my way: my life has not been mimicking that of a Seinfeld episode as frequently as before . . . that is one group of people (the show's characters) who I would rather not follow in the footsteps of!
I look forward to reading more of your thoughts : )
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Date: 2001-04-12 11:22 am (UTC)thank you! I appreciate your comments. :)
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Date: 2001-04-12 03:47 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2001-04-12 08:14 pm (UTC)I was a mess... maybe not a total dingaling, but there was a lot of bellringing happening. :)
morning sam
Date: 2001-04-14 08:35 am (UTC)personally, i've always felt like a mixture of rabbit and pooh
i know they are at odds with each other, but depending on my mood, i can evoke either personality
Re: morning sam
Date: 2001-04-14 08:36 am (UTC)*hug*