Christmas Blues

[scottobear]

Another sign that Scotto is part sissy-girl:

Weeps at Christmas songs. My face runneth over with tears. At a friggin' muppet song... 'Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas'. What a big baby.

Missing my dad...a lot. It hurts, a lot.
Stupid... I should be remembering the good times, and having a smile on my face, happy to have had so many. That's not what's happening... I'm remembering the good times, and realising there won't be any more with him, ever.

It's been over a decade... when does this shit get easier? It still creeps up on me, and hits like a ton of bricks.

The lines to the song... "let your heart be light, troubles will be miles away..."

*long, sad, sobbing sigh*

Tears are what are needed now, I guess... smiles will follow, as spring follows winter.

Comments

aww honey!

[angelina8.livejournal.com]

nothing hurts more, i understand...the worst part of it is that no one can say the right thing at the right time to erase the pain....lots of love to you for the holidays!!!! IM me if you ever ever ever need to chat...i am online 24/7!

:)
me

Re: aww honey!

[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thanks, kiddo. I appreciate that.

[mauracelt.livejournal.com]

we can share shoulders hun .. i m not doing so good myself right now. i have been crying all day. *hug*

[misspriss.livejournal.com]

*Lots of warm hugs to you*

You'll get through this : )

(and I think it's sweet that you're not trying to be all gruff and 'manly' about it!)

Missing

[http://users.livejournal.com/jerris_darkrun_/]

Some things just aren't MEANT to get easier. I lost my dad when I was eight years old, in 1967. I am now 42 and still wish he were around.

To see my children, his grandchildren. To play with them like he played with me. To sit quietly like he did with me and just BE there.

All that is gone, and while time has passed in decades rather than years, it sometimes gets harder rather than easier. Especially when I see so much of me in my own kids.

The upside to this? I'm still here to enjoy them!!

But I didn't want you to feel alone. Someone who once served with my dad has done a great service to all the Navy men who've been involved in the flight squadron since the 50's. Check out VPNavy Memorial (http://www.vpnavy.com/vp50mem.html)

[nomi.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*! Good thoughts your way.

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[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thank you. I appreciate them.

[applelard.livejournal.com]

Wish there was something I could say to make everything right and that I could be there to give you a hug...

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[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thanks for the thought just needed time to work it out.

[papoose.livejournal.com]

You aint no stinkin' sissy girl!
If you stuffed all of those feelings they would eat you alive.
You're cool is what you are. A real cool dude. You're what I might call a Good Soul. Yessiree.

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[scottobear.livejournal.com]

thank you.