7273 - ok, enough's enough.
Apr. 1st, 2005 10:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scottobear
While I was in the shower, bro came by and snagged the packet of change on my doorstep in case I didn't hear his knock. Perhaps it's best that I don't see his face. I can't let him ruin my whole weekend.
Going out with Danny today at about noontime.
Possibly a Movie? Maybe Sin City, maybe Gunner Palace.
April Fools' Day - Origins, pranks, articles.
Comedian Mitch Hedberg was found dead in his New Jersey hotel room on 3/30. Obit I really liked his work.. one of the best comedians I've ever seen on stage.
No concrete evidence, but he's got a history of heroin abuse, and died of a "heart attack". Great. That's news I needed to hear today. I'd like to take a baseball bat to his coffin right now. I know it's a sickness, but hell.
My brother would rather live on the fucking streets, stealing half-smoked cigarette butts from ashtrays and getting stoned than straighten out. How powerful a hold does something have to have on a person to let it override everything else, including eating, being clean or having a place to live?
Son of a bitch, I'm pissed off now.... I can feel heat coming off of my body in waves and I've got adrenaline shakes.
I'm going for a walk to cool down.
Stay the fuck out of my way, if you know what's good for you.
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Date: 2005-04-01 03:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-01 03:52 pm (UTC)You just described my brother...Let him do it Scotto. It is his choice and there is nothing you can do about it now. Hope that he learns to hate that way of life and then maybe he will want to clean up. Drugs are a powerful thing to make people make such desperate choices.
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Date: 2005-04-01 04:13 pm (UTC)I remember in vivid detail feeling that way about my father. He use to get in my grandmother's face and yell at her to give him some more money so he could go to the bar. That sticks out… You know what? Nevermind, there are stories and memories, but I have a choice now.
It's hard to care for someone like that. They are making destructive choices for themselves and the ones around them and there's nothing you can do to change them. Sometimes they change themselves and sometimes they die that way. Not having enough control over this made me so crazy. I remember staying at hotels because I didn't want to be there when he came home.
I'm sorry you are where you are. There is nothing I can say to help out. But if you want to vent, I am all ears. If you want to joke I am all ears. If you want to be silent and forget for awhile, I'm all ears for you Scott.
One piece of advice? Go see a funny movie.
Re: Company
Date: 2005-04-01 04:42 pm (UTC)I thank you for your kind words and shared sentiments. I do appreciate them. Fortunately, I can do a quick cool-down.
A funny movie sounds good.
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Date: 2005-04-01 04:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-04 12:53 am (UTC)although.. i think he just probably went to dinner with the dufranes. the silly bastard shouldve know better. :)
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Date: 2005-04-04 01:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-04 12:54 pm (UTC)Hopefully he'll get to pet the koalas, wherever he is now.
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Date: 2005-04-04 11:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-05 12:28 am (UTC)the best!!
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Date: 2005-04-04 03:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-04 11:47 pm (UTC)yeah i would have to reply to a post that you are telling people to stay out your way if they know whats good for them.. hahaa.. so yeah.. if you can handle me being stubborn then i will add you to my friends list if thats ok ;)
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Date: 2005-04-05 12:29 am (UTC)welcome!