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trivia-
coffee beans are not really beans, but fruit pits.

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Feeling insecure. First time I have, in quite a while. Love symptom. I trust her implicitly, yet fearful because my guard is totally down. This will pass.

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regained calm. reminded myself of some very good advice. "don't worry, until you know for sure that you should"

will ask later, and then decide if I should fear or not.

a terrible thing.

I think my current mindset is a mix of being overtired, mentally burnt out, and hypersensitivity.

tomorrow, I need to pay phone bill, rent, and begin winter shopping for b-days and yuletide cheer. also paycheck.

my brain is flatlined. creativity isn't leaping form anywhere, I feel dulled.

I'm so tired. but I won't be able to sleep.... I should just get into the bed and try. goodnight.

wakeup.

not gloomy this morning, it must've been the burnout and overtired speaking, last night. many chores to perform today, laundry, walk, preliminary yuletide shopping, bills to pay.

still tired... got maybe 4 hours of sleep, but I really am done with snoozing for now. maybe a midday nap later on to catch up.

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Ahhh.... 10000% better. napped, showered, went for my walk, got some holiday cards, paid my bills... sadly the bank was closed, so no paycheck cashed... will have to do that Monday. my main concern now is to make the girl feel as happy as I do. I worried her, and I don't want to be hurting her in any way.

Saw unbreakable. quite good, opened really well, and sort of lost steam at the bottom, but overall quite good. I hope they make a sequel.

Litany against Fear

I will not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

Bene Gesserit

Trepanation

Psionic tympani, craniomantic amulets, adding the Eighth Corner, qabalistic imprinting of the Mark of Cain, memory engrailment, worship of the Nazca sky-gods who built Sachsahuayman — the question isn't why drill a hole in your head, but why haven't you done it yet? (A variant on corrective phrenology).

Question. If you could have one type of body-modification done, what would it be, and why? anything from ritual scarring to prehensile tails...